Well, we've done it. We're ready. Or so we think.

We had a long weekend preparing for the journey ahead and remembering what we love about life as we know it now. Saturday we cleaned the house, packed some more and generally got chores done before loafing on the couch with a looooong overdue netflix rental and some pizza. Sunday, we got up to the mountains for a great, albeit relatively short, hike in Golden Gate State Park. That evening we got all dressed up and went to a high end Mexican dinner downtown, complete with scooter ride. Today we finished packing, preparing ours and Meadow's belongings and Josh spent 8 hours straight in the kitchen preserving all of the veggies we could get our hands on. Now, we just returned from a bike ride that we've been wanting to take for a while along the Cherry Creek in our neighborhood.

This was our form of nesting. It feels good, mostly. There were warnings about the undercurrent of anxiety as our baby's due date approaches. We've been such strong partners through everything, I think we were both surprised at our complete fits over things like taking five more minutes to get in the car to go on a hike or washing the floors better than usual. They were fleeting, but passionate, subconscious cries for help. Once we figured that out, things got under control again and we carried on.

I think we're finally at the point that most parents reach towards the end of their pregnancy. There's no time left to obsess about the process and busy ourselves with details. Now, we just allow ourselves to focus on hoping she's healthy and that she makes it out okay. Don't get me wrong. We're not in the clear on any of the paperwork. As we noted to each other tonight, it's not enough that things aren't all wrapped up and tied with a bow at this point. In reality, paperwork requirements haven't even been started. However, if there was anything we could do about that, we would have by now.

We have accepted that we are going to be in California longer than we expected and we're just beyond worrying that this whole thing will fall through. We just want her to be able to hear and see the world to which we want to introduce her. We want her to be able to run and ride with us in the park. Our focus now is on that little girl, more direct than ever before. We want her healthy and happy and here.